博尔赫斯在他的小说《博闻强记的富内斯》里描述过一种人类普遍的恍惚状态。主人公富内斯如果不是一次从马上摔下来的意外事故,会一直延续着那种恍惚终其一生:耳聋眼瞎,懵懵懂懂,记少忘多,就像生活在梦里。我就具有很多这样一个人类的特征。我总是忙忙碌碌,频繁更换住处,像上衣口袋里缝着救心丸的老人那样随身常备着书本,只要一个人在房间里就急忙打开电视或收音机。我害怕无所事事胡思乱想,害怕弄清我自己到底是谁。也许在很久以 Borges, in his novel “Funes,” a book that Robinson recounted, describes a common trance of mankind. Fu Ness, if not the protagonist from an immediate fall accident, will continue that kind of trance all his life: deaf blind, sloppy, remember less forgotten, like living in a dream. I have many such a human characteristics. I am always busy, frequent change of residence, like the old man in the pocket pocket sewed pills save the books, as long as a person in the room quickly hurriedly turn on the television or radio. I’m scared of doing nothing, cranky, afraid to figure out who I am. Maybe for a long time