这段往事是压在我心头的一桩伤心事,我碰上的伤心事不止一桩,但这件事却是伤心事中的伤心事。要问我这桩事情是怎么搞糟了的,我只能说都怨我自己太傻,太傻。每当我回想起这件事,我就想哭,想骂人,想痛打自己一顿。事情过去很久了,现在我把它讲出来,勾划一下我自己那副贱相,我也许能得到一种弥补了过失的安慰。 This past event is a sad thing that hurts my heart. There are more than one sad thing I ever met, but this is a sad thing in the heart. To ask me how this thing is messing up, I can only say I’m too silly, silly. Whenever I think about it, I want to cry, I want to curse, I want to beat myself. It has been a long time, and now I tell it out, delineate my own vice, I may be able to get a comfort to make up for the mistakes.